Sleeeeep...

I've mentioned before that I have trouble falling asleep. In the past year, however, this has not been a problem.

Pregnancy was pretty effective at tuckering me out. When I wasn't up going to the bathroom, or being kicked awake by the fetus, I was solidly asleep.

The screaming infant in the next room did an even better job of ensuring that my head-on-pillow time was not wasted. If he quieted down long enough for me to close my eyes, I would sleep like the dead for nine and a half of the ten minutes before he started wailing again.

Now, though, Cael is starting to get the hang of sleeping through the night. He's not perfect at it, but he's getting there. (His daytime naps are a completely different story. *grumble, grumble*) He's in his crib at 7:30 at night and pretty much contents himself to be there until 4:30 or 5 the next morning. This allows for me to get in bed at 9:30 or 10:00 and lie awake until 1:30, contemplating such important issues as abortion, presidential infomercials, and whether or not I have to vacuum tomorrow.

As I lie awake wondering how it is possible for me to screw up every recipe I attempt and trying to decide which I should fail at tomorrow night, I hear a noise. It's an odd half-groan, half-moan that fades in and then out in a couple of seconds. What is this crazy noise? Where is it coming from?

Apparently, it's coming from me.

It appears that when I'm in bed I'm not fully in control of my vocal chords. For some reason, every once in a while I just make this noise. It's happened about a dozen times in the last few nights. It utterly perplexes me. Why am I doing this? How is it that I'm not in control? Am I delirious?

I asked Ryan if I groan/moaned at night and he said, "Yeah," in a way that said, "Duh. You didn't know that?"

I don't know whether to be more bothered by the fact that I actually make this weird noise or by the fact that I have to listen to it. That's like making people listen to their own snoring. Not the way it's supposed to work!